living in a constant grey area.

I lately feel I'm always in a grey area of uncertainty. My idea of right and wrong is skewed and no longer cut and dry. I think a lot about circumstance. I feel a lot of things are justifiable in certain circumstances. Mind you I've been doing fucked up things a lot lately and I know they're fucked up because even in my loosely defined moral structure they still fall under wrong. Lately I just don't give a flying fuck about anything for any number of reasons. I feel like I'm fucking sinking. Went upstate for my mom's birthday she was really excited to have me walk in the door. It felt good to spend some time with the family.