9/9/09

So last night i ended up going out with Anthony my room mate to some bar called the lucky dog. Met two of his friends they seemed nice enough. The smile on this one of the two made me stupid. Which is a rare thing. Still no go she got a man not trying to fuck with that. Then we went to matchless, LAME LAME LAME I love seeing Jess, Tracy, Charlie and Brad they're all fun to hang with. I hate that bar lack of attractive women and it's the same every damn week. Any how Anthony got to talk to Mina. So all and all it wasn't a bad trip to that fucking stupid bar. I love riding my bike from place to place in Brooklyn. It makes me happy.

Today work sucked buzzkill, supplies didn't come in. Lack of work tomorrow supplies still won't be there. I have drag jobs out to no end. Had lunch with Dallas and Eve that made work alright also ran into Artie phillie talked to him about some bullshit. After work went to this weird graffiti thing at the new era flag ship store. I got to meet, Revok, Push, Sever and Ewok. I was beyond Stoked ...
Went to Williamsburg got food, met up with Reggie and the Stoop Crew as well as Gold. I know who really cares, It shows. En route home to drop off the Forfeit gear i have to bring upstate for Reggie. I had a break down, I started crying uncontrollablely, I'm really fucking scared my dad might die tomorrow under the knife. He's getting minor brain surgery.

He means a lot to me. I'm not sure he knows. I've never heard the man say I love you. He had a really rough childhood. His dad my grandfather use to beat the shit out of him, my grand mother and my aunts until my dad was old enough to say you'll never do this again. My grandfather was drunk and a prick. I never met the man hate to say it but i'm glad. Any one that could hit a women as caring and compassionate as my Grandmother deserves to burn in hell. I love my dad and I'm so fucking scared of losing him. At one point I didn't care for him. He was an alcoholic and wasn't around for the first part of my life. He managed to clean up his life and become a man who I admire and respect. Some one who I trust and can always go to for advice. Words are not enoughto describe how much I love my dad.

The dudes get home talk to me for a minute. I go over to Reggie's and hang with Bri, Amanda, Adam 22, Nick and some kid who I don't know. We watch walk the line and we all fuck with Bri, It takes my mind off things. I'm really grateful to have these friends. With out them I'd probably be a lot worse off. They seem to make the hard times not so hard. I don't think I'll be able to sleep tonight seeing as eating is rather hard right now.

If you believe in a God pray for my dad.

I'm not sure if I do....