So last night My mom called me told me my dad was in the ER cause something was wrong with him. My natural response is he OK? and Should I worry? I get yes and a no. This morning I'm awaken by my mom telling me my dad had a mild stroke. So I naturally call in to work and loose my shit while i lay in bed. I do my normal pray to god hope he's OK routine I do when everything gets fucked up. I wanted to call my ex just to have some one to talk to. I decided against it because I am well aware that would just make things worse. It sucks to not only loose your girlfriend but to also loose your best friend. I honestly careless about the girlfriend part then I do about the best friend. Don't get me wrong I could've called any number of my close friends to be like hey my dad's in the hospital I need to talk. I don't know I'm at a loss. I'd rather be alone right now. By the way my dad is fine and is not suffering from any adverse effects from the stroke by some miracle but he does have 3 compressed discs in his neck. The Doctors want him to quit smoking you'd think by now he'd have the common sense to quit already. I sat home all day and I've just been touching up paintings all day. I'm really not OK and I don't think I will be OK for quite some time. I'm just working on it. ABOVE is the painting i'm currently working on.
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