as i struggle to make sense of this mess

I find my self at a loss once again. I'm at odds with my girlfriend, I just got fucked over by some one I considered to be a close friend and I still don't have apt for the first. Where to begin this time?

The girlfriend,
She throws around things "I don't think you like me" "gee if I do this much stuff that annoys you when I sleep and all we do is sleep together why do you wanna spend time with me?" This stuff hurts me a lot I spend all my free time with her the little that I have. I tell her she's cute and try and reassure her that I really do like her and that she means a lot to me for some one who's been in my life for such a short period of time. Yet I don't think it's enough. I don't know what I'm doing wrong. She tells me I'm kind of a prick some times which for those of you who know me know I'm a bit rough around the edges so this is most likely true. I just don't get it I try to just be a sweet caring boyfriend but I some how every time let my anger and negativity poison it. Last night She said something along the lines of why do hang out with me when the way we sleep next to each other just annoys you so I lost it I yell what the hell is wrong with you I hate hearing this shit it hurts me, we rolled away laid on our sides I thought she was crying cause I heard her sniffle I was wrong but it made me just tell her in a calm manner that she means a lot to me and I really do like her a lot. she said nothing and this morning she left with out saying goodbye it hurt me.

The ever more chaotic apt situation.
So I'm suppose to move in with two friends we recently lost an apt in bushwick due to a fuck up in paper work and some one offering more money for the same apt. well one of the two people txts me this morning to tell me he's out he found a room in greenpoint he's gonna take it. which fucks me over and makes my life more difficult. I hear the same shit I'm not trying to fuck you over blah blah blah. WELL YOU ARE FUCKING ME OVER THANKS ASSHOLE! The next two days of appointments to look at three bedrooms are fucked and I'm gonna probably gonna pay a lot more which I can't afford to do. All because of hear say that I was just gonna stay at my current apt. THANKS TO THE ASSHOLE WHO STARTED THIS RUMOR. I mean I could be a total fucking deuche and stay put and fuck over my other friend. What I feel being a good friend is, is doing the right thing no matter what discomfort it causes to you. I try and live this way and I just get fucked over maybe I'll learn my lesson every one is gonna fuck you over no matter how good of a person you try to be. FUCK THAT.

It's a new year yet the choas continues.

Where to start, where to start I think I'll start with my relationship status. I officially have a girlfriend. Just when I thought I'd be single for the rest of my days. I met some one randomly and quite unexpectedly. We'll see how it goes she's already given our relationship a shelf life of two months.

Next I'm moving out of my apt after 2 years of being in this one place I've officially had enough of it. I'm moving out looking for apt with my friends Sean, Jon and Alex. Looking forward to something new. My current roommates they're kinda working my nerves a little bit. I honestly don't think it's anything to do with them I think it's just me being there for so long I'm starting to knit pick everything.

The holidays kinda sucked for me. Had to go to my god mother's funeral. My mom kinda flipped out on me about my neck being tattooed. found out my parents are probably getting a divorce. The only highlight of going upstate was seeing my cousin's daughter Zooie