heather-do you have a girlfriend?
me- no
heather- the blond girl isn't your girlfriend?
me- no
heather - you're not married are you?
me- no
heather- you don't have any kids do you?
me- no but there's a funny story cause i thought i might have one but turns out it's not mine
heather- you sure you don't have a girlfriend you're awfully cute to not have one.
me- yes I'm sure otherwise i wouldn't be laying in bed naked next to you.
heather- I probably should of asked you this before we slept together.
me- too late now and lucky for you I'm not a total scumbag
circa last Feb
not sure why i felt like sharing that conversation just felt like it. it was our first conversation after sleeping together.
saw her tonight it was the first time i didn't feel completely awkward since we've broken up.
I know I still make her uncomfortable cause she can't keep eye contact for more than a few seconds and quickly
darts away after we exchange pleasantries. the truth is I don't think either of us are over our break up. not sure why
we only dated for four months argued constantly we were both miserable but i guess you only remember the good.
and well for those of you who know me, you know i have a hard time letting go. I've been kinda numb since this whole
incident. since her it's just been rif raf for the most part this girl Sarah i hung out with over the summer was pretty rad
but i fucked that up kinda got freaked out that some one liked me so much. I freak out a lot I definitely get it from my
mother.
kinda over the dating thing for a number of reasons.
I could go into detail but I'll spare you my pissing and moaning this time.
gonna just focus on my career as an artist.
goals for the year to come
1. get in 2-3 gallery shows via the graf scumbags that I'm friends with
2. start printing t-shirts on the reg
3. produce way more art aside from my watercolor paintings and tattoo flash
4. more graffiti which is the best cure for loneliness on the planet
5. more collaborations with fellow artists
6. work out more
7. start fighting competitively again or at least train to.
8, find a place to bench freight trains.
