this is the life I sought out and look at me now.

I have the feeling I am wasting my fucking life. I feel like almost every one in my life sucks and is not to be trusted. I feel really fucking negative and I wanna change this. Every thing happens for a reason, I wanna fast forward and see how this all plays out. I miss being around my dad.

btw I'm still looking for a girl like this

Here's a list of qualities
1. Vegan
2. At least as cute as I am
3. Strong willed but can still admit when they're wrong
4. Similar taste in music as me
5. About as covered in tattoos as me
6. Can control me when I get outta hand yet still can get wild with me
7. Some one who can hang with the dudes and not get offended
8. Petite
9. Pushes me in all aspects of my life to do better and is motivated by me
10.Shy and slightly awkward
11.Has a fucked sense of humor like mine
12.spirtual but hates organized religion
13.Honest
14.Trustworthy

I wish people were more blunt

I'm sick of this pussy footin' around. TELL ME HOW YOU REALLY FEEL. There's one lady that consistently sends me mixed messages. Maybe they're not mixed maybe I need to make a move or just move on. That's life what can you do.

trying not to worry about so much about other people's nonsense just focusing on me for a min. Right now I am lonely I'd like to fast forward to where I'm use to being on my own and doing my own thing so this doesn't phase me as much. I could pursue things with a few different girls but it's the same story AS ALWAYS. I'm into the girl and she's not into me or at least I think that or she's super into me and I'm not into her and I start to get annoyed. I just have to remember logic you know it's not gonna work so don't waste each other's time... but that leads me to worry am I just scared of getting hurt. I'm falling asleep so I'll call it a day.

people are shitty and evil.

hurm

I feel reclusive as of late.


Here I sit, alone and in despair
The world outside is cold, alone and unfair
No motivation, no college degree
Day to day survival starting to worry me

No goals, no money, no inspiration
My crew, tattoos, that`s my only salvation
5 years from now where will I be?
On the same road with no future to no destiny

No ideas and fear is on my mind
Tell me, is my life just a waste of f**king time
Someday maybe I`ll find a way
To make all my fears go away
5 years from now where will I be
On the same road with no future to no destiny

h2o summed it up better than i could.

people are really shitty I'll play the game but I really don't like it. I just know where to put you all.