I'm probably not like you.

I come from a working class family I work really fucking hard for everything I have. stuff rarely just gets handed to me. I like it this way I actually appreciate all the things I've worked for. although my irrational fear of success is starting to become more and more bothersome. I don't really understand it. I just acknowledge it. Me and my friend Corinne had a long talk about how much our parents influence our lives. I think I get my fear of success from my dad and my stupid need for a relationship from my mom because of her constantly bugging me about grand kids. I don't know I honestly don't see my self settling down any time soon. Shit my last relationship was a fucking disaster that girl and I needless to say didn't mix i'll leave it at that. If the right girl comes along cool if not I'm not gonna stress it. not gonna call or text any one for a few days just to see who's who and what's what. I like my little experiments. Most people don't seem to find as much humor in them as I do. what can you do at the end of the day. Got two compliments today that made my day. gotta take the small victories.

it doesn't matter.

So my most recent relationship has come to an end. I have mixed feelings about, I'm sure things won't ever work between me and this girl. last night she showed me some truth, I honestly won't ever forget it. When some one does something so heartless they show their true colors that they only give a fuck about themselves it makes it real easy to walk away. I'll spare you the long complicated story of what happened cause it honestly doesn't matter. I know I'm better off.

3 years I've been waiting for my best friend to move to nyc wednesday it actually happens. I'm really fucking excited.

every thing's fucked send guns and lawyers....

forgot about this thing

So I've gone from being extremely happy with my life to being completely disappointed with it.