Beau Brady says I have to start dating nonvegan girls do I argue this one?

yup another entry on girls

Fucking hell every time I get stoked on a girl. I lose interest then they get interest cause I am no longer giving them constant attention. Then I'll find out they're on hard drugs or like over the top crazy. Man fuck dating people are fucked. More than half the girls I know describe a guy who's just like me as the type of guy they wanna date. Leaves me thinking I should be cleaning house and not sleeping alone fuck. Just needed to vent.

So much has changed

Had pizza with Eric f. tonight wow it's awesome to have him back on this coast again. I've had countless meaningful conversations with him traveling. Words can not express how grateful I am to have him in my life again. We might do a band together he seemed stoked on the idea. I am enjoying my life more than I ever have. Even though I feel like a big part is missing but in due time.

Rif Raf ...

So for the past couple of weeks there's been a lot of rif raf going through my life lady wise. I'm just done with it. deaf ear to the cell phone text messages. Can't say I won't miss the attention it's just too much nonsense I'm too damn impatient to be dealing with this kinda touch and go nonsense. I want something worth a damn. There's only one girl I actually like like and she's just got outta an almost marriage type situation kinda in the same boat as I was in. She's vegan and aggro seems to get my sense of humor. No expectations at this point. literally nothing has happened just more touch and go nonsense. She's first girl I've been kinda stoked on since the two cute girls I met at the last have heart show. When it boils down to it if you're not at least vegetarian I can't date you and take it serious. At the end of the day I truely think less of you cause you eat meat. It always ends up in a fight and it's not something I feel I can compromise on. I'm just done wasting my time on nonsense. Idealy I'd like to date a petite vegan girl that's into most of the same stuff i'm into with a facial or neck tattoo and who's not a bitch. too much to ask for ahhahahaha. Honestly right now I'd settle for a cute girl who's vegietarian who'd push me to be a better person.

Here's a list of qualities
1. Vegan
2. At least as cute as I am
3. Strong willed but can still admit when they're wrong
4. Similar taste in music as me
5. About as covered in tattoos as me
6. Can control me when I get outta hand yet still can get wild with me
7. Some one who can hang with the dudes and not get offended
8. Petite
9. Pushes me in all aspects of my life to do better and is motivated by me
10.Shy and slightly awkward
11.Has a fucked sense of humor like mine
12.spirtual but hates organized religion
13.Honest
14.Trustworthy

If you know this girl send her my way .... be easy bk

Top of the moutain

As this ridiculous holiday approaches. I'm just grateful that on a daily basis I take time out and think of all the awesome people in my life. I am so fortunate to be a part of so many different groups of people and to know if I ever was in a shit situation I'd have a solid group of people who would come to my aid with out me even having to ask. All my friends are my extended family, My crew is more to me than family. I've been really depressed lately for no reason tonight having an amazing talk with Joey and Max completely turned it around. Our click our group we're all really nice guys cause there's no reason not to be "we're the lions at the top of the mountain there's plenty of food to go around... Every one else they can fight and get feisty with each other over some petty nonsense. Just don't mistake the kindness for weakness." That thought I really hope I didn't lose it that Joey shared made a world of difference.

I'm where I should be with my life and I feel really good about things. I'm starting to realize who's who and what's what. If you can't be up front with me from the get go I can't respect you. Feet on the floor just gonna put the nose to the grind stone and work on all the stuff I wanna work on. Not worry about inconsequential nonsense any more. Tomorrow night party at my place just trying to have some fun with friends.

Working on the book some more

looking up old blogs journals and such. any thoughts stories that come to mind that are a must have in the book.

titles I'm thinking "What the hell am i doing here" "This is why we can't have nice things" "I should be dead by now"

been going out a lot and neglecting my art work have a few ideas for some paintings I'm gonna start a new acrylic painting tonight.

been kinda depressed after the shit i have to do on Thursday I may take off and go some where by myself not sure where. We'll see ....

Human trash

It's so hard to maintain while surrounded by human trash on a daily basis. All I wanna do is draw and live my life. I seem to be lashing out at people cause I'm so sick of their shit. Cry me a fucking river. I know for a fucking fact my life has been harder than most of these whinny fucks. I deal with my shit I handle my problems and try and keep to myself as much as possible why cause it's no one's fucking problem but my own. The worst is when I hear some one piss and moan about the stupid shit they did while they were fucked up on pills or hard drugs, fuck you grow the fuck up. YOU ARE RESPONSIBLE FOR YOU'RE OWN FUCKING ACTIONS. I have a lot of friends who can chill smoke weed and do drugs responsibly if you can't don't use drugs common sense. People who just seek drama and put themselves in shit situations for attention I just wanna strangle you. I have profound hatred of these people. I try and show some empathy and understand it rains on every one a like but christ. Who am I to judge .... just needed to vent.

Recluse mode starts soon...

see you when it warms up

Girl friend application.

1. Your Name:
2. Age:
3. Fave Color:
4. Whats your sign?
5. Phone Number:
6. Location:
7. Height:
8. Hair (color and style):
9. Piercings/tattoos:

HERE COMES THE FUN ...

1. Are we friends?
2. Do you have a crush on me?
3. Would you kiss me?
4. How far would you let me take things?
5. Would you enjoy it?
6. Would you ever ask me out?
7. Would you make a move on me in a movie theater?
9. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?
10. Do you want to tell me something that you couldn't before?
11. Would you walk on the beach with me?
12. If you heard a rumor about me, would you defend me?
13. Do you/have you talked about me?
14. Do you think I'm a good person?
15. Would u take a nap with me?
16. Do you think I'm cute?
17. If you could change anything about me -would you?
18. Would you dance with me?
19. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

What Do You Think Of My...?

1.Personality:
2.Eyes:
3.Face:
4.Hair:

W0ULD Y0U...
give me your number?
kiss me?
let me kiss you?
watch a movie with me?
take me out to dinner?
drive me somewhere really far away cause i have no other way of getting there?
hug me?
buy me food?
take me home to meet your family?
would you let me sleep in your bed?
sit in the doctors office with me because I didn't want to go alone?
re-post this for me to answer your questions?
bail me out of jail cause i did something stupid?
come pick me up at 3 am because my car ran out of gas in the middle of nowhere?

Do YoU...
think I'm cute?
want to kiss me?
want to cuddle with me?

Am I...
odd but fun?
cute?
funny?
cool?
interesting to talk to?

ARE YOU?

Vegan?

Straight edge?

Crazy?

On meds?

If so how many?

HAVE YOU EVER...
thought about me?
thought there might be an "US"?
thought about hookin up with me?
found yourself wanting to kiss me?
wished i were there?

what's more important to you, your time or their money?